Sick of Food

Food is everywhere.  We are bombarded with ads for products, delivery services, food kits, restaurants, etc..  We have easy access to "junk food" more so now than ever.  Eating habits is changing for many.  The options for vegans, for instance, has become so expansive in the last ten years.  The food industry is a billion dollar business.  Sure, we need to eat to sustain ourselves.  But for the first time ever, I am sick of food.

I should consider myself lucky to have food.  First world problem as they say.  But, a sister of mine had hanging art with a quote or motivational bullshit on it.  It said "we don't eat because we're hungry, we eat because we're bored."  It's true.  There have been many a time that I was so bored, that I would eat.  I order something.

According to Food & Nutrition they say: "As we know, boredom causes us to participate in behaviors that result in pleasure. However, if we constantly use one particular behavior, our brain becomes less able to experience pleasure from anything else. So if we always rely on food to relieve boredom, our brain becomes re-wired to derive the most pleasure from eating."

For me, it's not just about eating when bored.  It's the fact that I've eaten way too much food lately.  I've gotten sick of food.  When I'm at home, the thought of food is just ugh (for a lack of a better term).   When at him, I still eat and more than I should at times.  It's stupid.  But as a diabetic, I have to eat.  Eating prevents things like low blood sugar which can cause hypoglycemia.  Hypoglycemia can lead to other issues.

My problem is not eating a balanced diet.  My diet is absolute shit.  As the adage goes, "old habits die hard."  It's a seemingly vicious cycle.  I fucking hate it.  I have said a number of times that I will make changes, but it never happens.  It also doesn't help that my sleep schedule hasn't been off recently.  Ugh.  I don't want this to be lip service, but I need to make changes.  Motivation can be a bitch.  My motivation has been low which also doesn't help.  Getting outside especially when it's spring and summer makes one feel better.

Why we feel better during these seasons is because it brings more sunlight thus we enjoy the energy that is used to fight off drowsiness.  Serotonin is released due to more light.  Serotonin is a chemical that makes us feel happier.  To be honest, it does make me feel better.

Now to just get motivated to do more, eat less, and not be sick of food.