Tuesday, February 07, 2017

Gym Day 3: Feel the Burn

Yesterday I hit the gym at Lakewood Civic Centre.  It was a pretty intense workout if I do say so myself.  I did nearly an hour of cardio.  Did some weights after that.  I slept after that.  I was wiped.  That maybe expected after such an intense workout.  It was worth it though.  I am not going to the gym everyday.  Maybe a few times a week.  Don't push it too hard.  Just hard enough.  I will slowly see some results.  It is needed for my health.

A week ago last Monday on January 30th, I was at Lawson Civic Centre as you have read.  One thing I seen in the weight/cardio room was a poster that said "sore today, stronger tomorrow."  I didn't think about it much.  But on this third day, it hit me.  It rang true.  I am getting stronger.  Maybe this is something we should all live by when getting in shape.  Thinking back to last winter, spring, and summer; this rang true as well.  I was walking a lot last winter.  I was up to 12.5 kms.  I hope to get back to that or close to it.

More workouts will happen this week.  More workouts will take place.  Never forgot, "sore today, strong tomorrow."  It will help you push forward.  It will help you if you have a lack of motivation.  I've been there.  I've had a lack of motivation a lot in my life.  That is slowly changing.  I am slowly changing that mindset.

Day three was the hardest of my workouts.  I need to push myself.  I need to feel the burn.  "Sore today, stronger tomorrow."  I guess you can say it's becoming more than just a catchphrase.  You can say it is becoming a mauntra.  Join me on my journey to a new and improved self.  Join me on my journey to reclaim my health.

Saturday, February 04, 2017

Song of the Day #57

Love can be a burden.  It can bring you down like a heavy load.  Jamestown Revival's song "Love is a Burden" rings true.  Love can be a real bitch.  It sucks when you try and get nothing.  It weighs you down and you seemingly can't do nothing about it.  But I am learning to not let it get me down.  Too many times it has and it is not good for me.  Enough about that.  Enjoy a great song with a great vibe.

"Love is a Burden" by Jamestown Revival
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Friday, February 03, 2017

Song of the Day #56

I have had this song in my head lately.  I finally found the name of it.  Good thing you can search lyrics to find the actual name of a song.  It's got a good vibe to it.  I dig it.

"Kiss This" by The Struts
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Monday, January 30, 2017

Gym Day 1: The First Step

Today was the first step in reclaiming my health.  My friend Shannon urged me to go to the gym at the Lawson Civic Centre.  I do have a temporary pass as I am waiting for my official pass.  It was a cardio evening.  Shannon signed us up for a 45 minute areobics class.  It was intense.  At least for me anyways.  It was something I've never done before.  Would I do it again?  I don't know.  It is something that I will have to think about.

I followed that up with 20 minutes on the treadmill.  I don't usually walk treadmills.  I am more of an outside walker.  That's what I did last winter, spring, and early summer.  I was up to 12.5 kms a week.  I need to get back to a decent amount of walking outside.  After that I did 30 minutes on the bike.  I haven't been on a stationary bike in a long time.

Did I overdo it?  There is a case for that.  I will have to do less until I get stronger.  The old adage is "less is more."  I am feeling it.  I am sore.  I will eventually overcome.  That's part of reclaiming my health.

Since coming back to Saskatoon, I've reverted back to my old lifestyle.  I've become lazy again.  I had this plan that I was going to continue my positive lifestyle.  That was a lie.  I was gung-ho.  But in the end, I did nothing.  It has crept up on me and I would be paying for it if I didn't make a change.  If you have relatively good health, don't take that for granted.  Don't think you are bulletproof.  Your health could take a turn and it is not fun.  So keep your health while you have it.

I was careless and it put me in the hospital for ten days in late 2015.  I was careless again and now I need to take this seriously.  I have had a great support system.  Aside from Shannon, I've had my sister Heather, a very good friend in Mark Jensen, someone who prays for me almost daily in Maurice Hilderman, and Cam Zoller, which might not be much, for his nuggets of wisdom.  I thank them for being a close knit support system even when I haven't been at my best.  I am truly blessed to know a lot of people, especially nurses, who are or have been in medical profession.

This is day one.  This is the first step.  Join me in my journey in reclaiming my health.

Sunday, August 28, 2016


Jealousy wasn't something I experienced in my dating life I started liking someone at the end of college 9 years ago.  It got worse when I was rejected by someone I liked that I worked with.  You can find posts about that and what happened in the summer of 2010.  It's too lengthy to put into this post.  I got jealous because she was with someone else.  It was bad and now I get jealous over things in my dating life.

Jealousy is back.  I like someone and the same old shit of rejection.  I know things won't be like it was in the summer of 2010.  That doesn't change the fact that I am jealous.  Not one bit.  I can't handle that she is seeing other people.  Or wants to be with someone other than myself.  The funk returns and I hate it.  It eats away at me.  I wish I never went through this all those years ago.  This might be easier.  It might not trigger this now.

I am in such a funk right now that I feel sick.  I've been in funks before and it has been awful, but I haven't felt sick over it.  This fucking sucks.  I have to move on or so one would say, but I just can't.  I just feel like I can't anyways.  I need things to occupy my mind.  Even if just temporarily.  If I don't have these things to occupy my mind, I will think and think and about this and it will drive me mental.  I feel like I am trapped.  I feel until I eventually get over it, I will continue to be trapped.

I feel like going for a walk will help.  But the last time I was like this, walking helped somewhat.  It helped because I wouldn't be sitting around and just thinking about this.  As I said, sitting around thinking about this effects me.  I just want it to stop.

Feeling this way is not good for my health considering I am epileptic and diabetic.  This combination of stress and jealousy will effect my blood sugar levels.  I know things need to change for the sake of my health, but my motivation is shit right now.  Having no motivation fucking blows.  I need motivation for the sake of my health.  It is important.  This is one thing I've had a hard time at.  I need to get my weight under control.  I want that in the worst way.

With being in a funk, I feel restless.  I feel the need to get out and find something that may mind off being restless.  Something I do is take long showers or baths.  I did that when I was in a real bad funk in 2010.  That is a sign of it. 

I don't know what to do about being jealous  I feel helpless and trapped as I said.  I can't sleep as I just think about her.  I can't get her off my mind.  It sucks because of the jealousy.  I just hate the fact that it fucks around with my life.  It won't let me live my life normally.  If I wasn't jealous I could.  Jealousy is a cruel mistress and it knows it.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Summit Fun Run - The First Time

This past Saturday on June 18th, I participated in the Summit Fun Run in my hometown of Prince Albert.  This was the first time I ever did something like this.  I was told by my cousin earlier in the year that I should enter something like this.  I wasn't sure I should.  I never really thought about it.  Walking a section of the Rotary Trail many times, I always saw a banner on the fence of some person's place about the Summit Fun Run.  I never gave any thought to entering.  I knew about it, but that was it.  Than I talked to my sister Heather and she suggested I should enter the family or 2k distances with her oldest daughter, my niece, Kaylee.  That didn't happen.

I decided on Friday the 17th to enter the Summit Fun Run.  I walk a lot or I have been since December due to my new lifestyle because of my diabetes I was diagnosed with.  Since the weather has been so nice this spring and into this summer, I have been walking the Rotary Trail.  I am able to walk well over half of it.  There has been a few times I have walked over 10k of it.  With being able to do well over half the Rotary Trail, I signed up for the 10k.  I knew that it would be tough.  But as I said in Instagram comments of a picture of mine, I need to do something more than what I usually do in terms of walking.  10k was exactly that.

I was not the fastest, but that is not what mattered. My time compared to others is not what mattered.  It was personal for me. It was about doing it for myself.

Walked for a little ways with two amazing older ladies. I told them about my health issues and they were encouraging about keeping a good pace. They've been doing this for ten years. In fact passing people on the 10k and even people watching gave a word encouragement or cheered. Some emotional moments for me as I walked.

The run/walking community are some of the most supportive people. Amazing!

 I checked the times and I officially clocked in at 1:38:45 or so.  I don't usually keep track of my times.  Now I will try and keep track of my times to see if I am getting any faster.  That is more a personal thing for me than anything.  Today, June 25th, I walked a 12.5k.  I was able to shave nine minutes off my 10k.  I ended up with a time of 1:29:26.  I had some decent intervals.  My intervals were every 2.5k. 

1. 00:23:36
2. 00:38:06
3. 01:04:08
4. 01:29:26

As I train and work at my times, I will shave off more time.  That is inevitable.  I would like to find a walking/running group to join or possibly start one.  If not, it is all good.  I will continue to push myself regardless.  I am going to work at this and I will need to do it in the winter as well.  No off season as they say.  Let's see how this goes.  It will be interesting for sure.

Thanks for all your positive vibes last week.  I truly appreciate it.  Much love!

Saturday, May 07, 2016

WWE Stars Help Victims of Fort McMurray

Two WWE stars in fellow Canadians Kevin Owens and Tyler Breeze have setup a GoFundMe fundraiser in hopes of raising at least $30,000.  It doesn't matter if you like or hate their characters they portray in the WWE.  They deserve major props for doing this.  They have a couple of perks for donating.  $100 or more gets you a video and follow on Twitter.  Anything less gets you gets you a follow on Twitter.  I encourage you to give something.  Every little bit helps!