Should Be Sleeping

I should be sleeping considering how much sleep I've gotten and how crappy this past week has been. But here I am awake at 1:23 AM on June 13th awake, but I have been up in less then seven hours for church. So, yeah...

Being In A Funk

I've never been in this type of a funk (you know it as a different word, but that is not the point) before earlier this week. I decided after some thought to break up with my girlfriend Penny of seven months. I was dating her over the Internet. It was going great for a number of months, but she has hardly been in the last few months that it became hard to keep this relationship going. So earlier this week, as I said, I broke up with her. It was a hard decision and it put me in this funk.

So now I've been grateful to a friend for being there for me and talking. She knows who she is! :) Now when I hang out with her I don't feel like I am in this funk. I know why. But this funk comes back when we are not hanging out. Thinking about her and not hanging out just makes this funk worse.

Since I've been in this funk I've been thinking too much, I've not gotten much sleep, I've not eaten a lot, I've been down, I've had mixed emotions, and I've even broken down. This just bites the big one and being around her (she knows who she is) just puts my mind at ease.

So yeah, I guess that is all for now.

Some Songs That Show How I Am Feeling

Here are a few songs that show how I am currently feeling. It's a long story that I don't really want to get into. Some of you know the story. But here you go.

"Count On Me" by Default
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"Take Away My Pain" by Dream Theater
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"Who I Am" by Nick Jonas And The Administration
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"When I See You Smile" by Bad English
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"A Love Song For No One" by John Mayer
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Friends

I am blessed to have friends, but what makes me even more blessed is that I have discovered that one particular person that has become a really good friend. I know that I have friends that I can talk to which I appreciate, but I can just talk about stuff I can't with anybody but her. Yes it's a female. She knows how I feel, but I am wanting to see where being friends go. If by some chance we went further and it didn't work out, then I may lose a really good friend. So I am fine with being friends because she has helped me through some rough patches recently. So I do appreciate that very much.

Was this supposed to happen that I became friends with her? I feel like we could be more sometime in the future, but for right now being friends seems like the right thing to do.

Friends come and friends go, but I have a pretty good feeling that we will be friends for a long, long time.

Goodbye Law and Order, Global Reality

Law & Order is a show that ran for twenty seasons and was spun off numerous times with numerous characters. Now I was never a big fan of show. Although Law & Order: Special Victims Unit and Law & Order: Criminal Intent had a few good episodes. But I do respect that it was able to have longevity while becoming a legendary institution. Law & Order spawned many spin off shows like Law & Order: Special Victims Unit, Law & Order: Criminal Intent, Law & Order: Trial By Jury, Law & Order: UK, among others. Now last week it was announced that Law & Order going off the air and that show has the distinction of being the longest running cop drama. It is seemingly being replaced by Law & Order: Los Angeles. I wonder if it will be received like the other spin offs and have the same level of success. I guess time will tell.

Isn't there already a reality show channel? Well if not, there is now in Canada. The channel is called Global Reality. Global is the equivalent of Fox in Canada just like CTV is the equivalent of CBS, NBC, and CBS and just like CBC is the equivalent of PBS. Majority of reality shows blow and there a lot already, but would this mean that they would produce original reality shows ? Or will show re-runs only? Or will produce original shows and show re-runs? Either way we don't need anymore reality shows except Hells Kitchen, America's Got Talent, Britian's Got Talent, and X Factor. All the rest can go away.

Dude Guy

The term dude guy can being created as being coined by my friend Steve Reid. I started using the term a lot at CBC and since then it has been used by various other people such as friends. I was checking Facebook today when I came across a friend using the term dude guy. So I thought to myself how crazy it is that it has become apart of some people's, like me, vocabulary.

This just goes to show you that you never know what might catch on.

It's Raining, It's Pouring...

Saturday evening it was raining like crazy and very windy. 8th St. was crazy with rain. But I like driving through the big puddles with my car as long as I can get through it. Sunday, it was still raining, but not as much. Now today seems a lot nicer out.