Now That CBC Is Over

Riding on the bus from Strathmore to Saskatoon gives you time to think. I reflected on the past year with the memories I have and the friends I have made. I went over the event of the couple weeks prior to CBC being finished and I realized that I had strong feelings for a girl. I told her after the fact when CBC was over and I expected her not to feel the same way. But it doesn't get any easier. She is one solid and awesome girl. I never met someone like her before. It was just not meant to be and as I said, I expected that. But that doesn't make it any less easier. There are a few things I will miss about this person and that is her smile, her caring attitude towards people, her down to earthness (is that even a word?), and so much more. Just being friends is the most important thing. I know that we could make a long distance relationship work, it's as I keep stating is that she doesn't feel the same way.

I have started on my quest to become employed. I haven't applied at a lot of places, yet, but I plan on it though. I need to get some work so I can start saving up money and paying off my student loan. Student loans don't pay for themselves. I also hope that I can save up some money to pay for college next year provided I get accepted. I still need to get an application for the Western Academy Broadcasting College here in Sasaktoon.

I have also shaved off my chops. I still have my sideburns, it's just that they are not mutton chops like they used to be.

I miss all of you guys and I hope I can see some of you sooner rather than later. People of my CBC class, don't hesitate to come and visit me! Ha!

Until next I have something to say to you... Shika da!
Mr. C.C.

"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
-Unknown

"Why do they call it a crush? Because that's how you feel when they don't feel the same way in return."
-Unknown

"A movie camera is like having someone you have a crush on watching you from afar - you pretend it's not there."
-Tom Stoppard

Spring Retreat & Commencement

We are back from the spring retreat which is the final retreat of the year. It was a bittersweet time. We got to hang out with each other for the one of the final times this year. In some sense this was a time to just reflect back on the year, give thanks to God in all that he has done this year. The friendships we have made, the talks we have had, the laughing, the tears, the joy, the everything was reflected upon. It wasn't all somber and sadness. There was some great times had. There was some great laughs shared. It was a great time to just fellowship for one of the last times with a good majority of them.

Some of the people I have become friends with I will truly miss because of the close bond I have made with them. Some I can't say the same for as I never got to make a close bond with them. This year was rewarding in many ways like the aforementioned friends I have made. It will difficult in my own way leaving CBC. I have learned so much from so many people and I will take what I have learned and hopefully use it in the future.

Just think, it's seems like only yesterday we just started coming here. But in another sense, it's like we have been for along time. I do acknowledge that CBC was not meant to last forever. It was only meant to last one year. I get that, but in many ways it has been a great ride whether we are going up or going down. There will always be hard times and if there wasn't than we would never know how to grow from those experiences. The community has been wonderfully and painfully connected to each other and the times we have been to hell and back have been crucial to our growth and development, as I said, as Christians. If we didn't grow, than we were putting on nothing but a show.

Outside of the confines of the CBC community, leaving St. Michaels & All Saints Anglican Church was so hard. They embraced me into their parish and community. It was hard to leave. This one lady, Betty Wyndham, at St. Michaels said that I better come back and visit. I will try and hold Betty to that promise. Another lady at St. Michaels said that they will miss my singing in front of the church. Not only the church, but parting ways with the former minister Fergus Tyson was hard. Fergus and myself formed a close relationship. We talked about a lot of stuff like apologetics, Anglicanism, hockey, my grandfather, among other stuff. He is just so smart that when you say something, he can just go on and on. I respect how smart he is and it is fitting that our last day at St. Michaels was on April 29th. I know that the St. Michaels & All Angels and St. Andrews in Gleichen are losing a respected minister. When people were saying a few words and giving him gifts, I said a few words. It was hard to say goodbye. I felt it was a privilege and an honour to be embraced by the St. Michaels & All Angels parish and have a close relationship with Fregus. I will never forget them and they will be in my prayers.

I just ask God's blessings on them as they go through this time of transition with Fergus gone and the low numbers. They are doing the work of God and they need new members of their church so it can be sustained for the future. If all the people in their directory came to church and gave regularly, than they would have more than even money to sustain themselves. But the fact is that they don't have those numbers and thus don't get the money they need. I hope they can get enough money in their building fund to build a new church building. I want to see this parish and ministry flourish.

So commencement is upon us, or is starting Friday. I know that there will people that will be a mixed bag of emotions. As draws as a whole draws to a close, it will be a time of reflection and a time of being with people one last time. Treasure the times that you were with people. Don't forget the friends you have made. I know I may be sounding a bit emotional, but I will not forget the times I had here. This will be one last send off for the staff, students, teachers, CBC board members, and alumni (if any alumni are there). It will be one final send off and I hope it's the best one ever.

All in all, whether it's within the CBC campus, or within the church, I have grown significantly and have been impacted in so many ways. I will look back on this year with mixed emotions, but I will not forget the memories that I have and I will not forget the friends I have made.

Peace of the Lord be will you for now and for always;
Mr. C.C.

“It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more.”
-Unknown

“Education is not a product: mark, diploma, job, money in that order; it is a process, a never ending one”
-Bel Kaufman

"Great is the art of beginning, but greater is the art of ending."
-Lazurus Long

Your Theological Worldview

You scored as Roman Catholic. You are Roman Catholic. Church tradition and ecclesial authority are hugely important, and the most important part of worship for you is mass. As the Mother of God, Mary is important in your theology, and as the communion of saints includes the living and the dead, you can also ask the saints to intercede for you.

What's your theological worldview?
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A New Addition To The Family?

Today as I wasn't feeling good, I didn't go to class. I usually stay logged into MSN Messenger when I am not class. So my sister Angela IMs me and said, you need to find a job so you can spend money on gifts for a new niece of nephew or something to that affect. I was puzzled. She was snickering (she posted a snickering emoticon) and I was still puzzled. Still snickering, she than came out and told me that Heather, my other sister, was pregnant and that she is due in November. Angela was disappointed by the emoticon she posted.

My initial reaction was shock. Than I thought, ewww my sister had sex. Immature, I know, but that's how I felt. I than responded, by saying that I thought she would have at least have waited until her honeymoon to do it. Practicing Christians would generally wait until they get married to have sex. That was my view of it. But Angela said that she is a not a practicing Christian. It is all an act. In someway I agree. She puts on one face for family and one face for church. But now I just don't know what to think.

One thing I am worried about is her fiance, soon to be husband, possibly becoming a deadbeat. I mean, he doesn't do much around the apartment. I just wonder if he will decide to leave. I want this child to have a father in his or her life. My other niece and two nephews don't have their fathers in their lives and I don't want this to happen to this child. I will love this child regardless. But if Rob (her fiance) acts like a deadbeat in any way, than so help me. This will be a huge rude awakening for both and they need to mature and fast because once this child enters this world, they will have significantly less time to do what they want. My sister Heather doesn't like to be at home that much, but she will have to now because once this child comes into this world. It will be less about them and more about this child.

I am mixed bag of emotions right now and I might not be thinking rationally. So I just want a piece of mind in this situation. I want this child to grow up in a healthy loving home, but I am not sure if this child will get it or not because there have been times where I have witnessed my sister Heather and Rob fight and over the might trivial things. I am just so confused at what to think right now. I wonder if my mom, dad, or step dad know about this. I don't want my dad to be the last to find out because the last time he was the last to find out about my sister Angela being pregnant with her third child, it set him right off. I just hope my family doesn't find out through the grapevine because that would be just wrong to find out that way because I would think that they would have the maturity to come forward and tell my parents. After all, they have decided to become parents.

Back From Saskatoon

Over the weekend six of us went to Saskatoon to the Evangelical Orthodox Church. It was for their Easter celebrations. They had services Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. They went through the whole Lent services that coincides with Jesus' death and resurrection. Something like this I have never experienced before. Sure I have experienced an Easter service and whatnot, but attending services like this has given me a deeper appreciation for Jesus' death, burial, and resurrection. I am thankful for the opportunity to go and experience that. If I didn't go, then I would have never felt this deeper appreciation.

The weekend was very good overall and I thank everyone at Holy Covenant Church for being so hospitable.

Memories

Do you have a memory of me? If so, just post a comment about it. It doesn't matter if you know me a little or a lot. Memories of me is what I want. I have seen other people do this and it's pretty cool and funny. Repost this as a "memories" and see the responses you get.

Until next time, I have two words for ya... good bye!
Mr. C.C.

“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.”
-Jeremy Irons, British Actor

“Whenever I think of the past, it brings back so many memories.”
-Steven Wright, American comedian

“A person is neither whole nor healthy without the memories of photo albums. They are the storybook of our lives. They provide a nostalgic escape from the tormented days of the present.”
-Patrick Garry

“Some people do not become thinkers simply because their memories are too good.”
-Frederich Nietzsche, German classical scholar, philosopher, and critic of culture

This Alberta Weather

Alberta weather in the last few weeks has been inconsistent. It will snow one day, then the next day it will melt away. Then it will snow again, then once again melt away. What is up with that? At least in Saskatchewan when it's cold, it is for a number of week or two, but when it's nice, it's nice.

I don't know why Alberta weather is the way it is. Do you?